2016...

Hey guys,

2016 has been TERRIBLE. I'm not just saying this because of what we see in the media, though I wish peace to all the families of all those who have died, and pray for all those suffering in places like Aleppo.

My personal year has been terrible. Okay, I passed my 1st year of university. But most things haven't gone a way that would make me happy. I broke up with my ex girlfriend early this year. I hurt and cried. But then I felt I could deal with it. But that was when I realised how alone I feel. There was another girl but right when I realised how much I loved her I'd already messed things up. She was the nicest person and I lose it. The trouble is that I still struggle to get over this (Sorry this doesn't make much sense). So now I feel super lonely.

As for university, I am stressed out. I have a PDR I need to write by Jan 10th and exams to revise for. I can't do any of it. I suck at engineering. I want to play music. I get stressed to the point where I struggle to breathe. I just want a break from this.

There have been good times. Work was fun over summer. But I kind of struggled with finding me time if you get me. Reading Festival was amazing and I want to go to next years (that I can't afford).

Mum relapsed with cancer this year and has just about finished chemo. It will probably always be like this but it is really worrying. I love my mum...

I am struggling to write this and I don't know where it is going. It's kind of stressing me out. But anyway. I'm going ice skating tomorrow. Good night.