A letter to my mum

 Dear mum,

It’s 1 year since you left this place and I hope it’s peaceful and painfree where you are.

I think about you everyday. I miss being able to talk to you, because there aren’t a whole lot of people I feel comfortable opening up to. There aren’t a lot of people that understand me like you did, but then you raised me. I miss coming to talk to you every time I left the house. 

It’s a struggle with you gone. Most people don’t understand how this feels and I have very little patience for nearly anyone these days. I struggle to see the point in work, or why we do anything, I don’t want to look back and wish I had spent less time working, but the world is so expensive.

You would be proud of me for the things I have done in the last year, I know that much, but I am struggling to keep going with it. The way this world is drives me insane and all I want is it to stop.

I know you would have done anything for more time.

Joel

x

When everything seems hopeless

When everything seems hopeless

Even in the darkest night,

A torch’s light cuts through it, bright.

Even in the dullest days,

Tops of clouds see the sun’s rays.

When all hope seems on the brink,

Just be calm, take time to think,

At least a place is there that’s dark,

A place that, one day, light can arc.

Just chill out, take time to be,

The dark will pass, and then you’ll see,

When everything seems hopeless,

The world will turn, regardless.

JRF