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Wednesday, December 26, 2018

2018

In my final year of uni I have come to the realisation that I will be graduating in this academic year. This terrifies me. I've finally got the hang of uni and now I have to leave.

One of the things I'm going to miss most is playing American Football. This isn't something I'll really get to continue after uni.

Basically After June I don't know what I'm going to do. I have no certainty. I don't know what I want to do with my career, I don't have a love life, and I don't know how to meet new people without being in education. When I graduate, all my social, academic and professional things will go and I don't know what to do about it.

I will be 22 and feeling like the most enjoyable 4 years of my life has ended. Where do I go from here?

One option is to stay at uni. This is tempting but I can't afford this option. Also I don't think I want to do anything that is on offer. PhDs are not my thing and the only other thing Surrey offers that I think I could potentially do is post-grad nursing, but I don't think this is right for me either.

I could also go into engineering, but I don't think this is the right career direction for myself. I just will not be satisfied by this. In terms of Careers, I have been most satisfied in the part-time job at the SU, but I will lose this job pretty much when I graduate.

The next option is to procrastinate getting a job, so to speak. This wouldn't be fair on my parents as I will have no money, so I won't be able to afford anything. Also, I don't want to live with my parents for ages.

Ideally I would play music for a living but I don't think I'd get lucky in this regard.

All in all, I am scared of leaving uni and I don't want June to come. 

Thursday, March 29, 2018

Accomodating my anxieties

I'm completely terrified. I'm looking for somewhere to live in Guildford again and so far it's all gone wrong. The group I was looking with got campus accomodation and I'm stuck looking. The average this year is about £570pppm just on rent and I can't afford it if it goes above £530pppm. My application for campus accommodation didn't go through the first time and the second attempt wasn't successful. I don't want to commute from home but it is looking more and more likely that I'm going to have to. It keeps me up at night that I don't know where I'm going to live. I don't have time to think about it.

I need to learn a whole module because one of our lecturers is completely useless. At the same time I want to have a life... I kind of regret not going on tour but I also didn't really have time to. I'm trying my hardest at everything but apparently that's not good enough.